I’ve spent years studying religious beliefs and theology, especially Christian theology, and thanks to my OCD, I’ll probably continue spinning my wheels in this area until I croak. Maybe it’s a calling of sorts, as Christian Wiman said in My Bright Abyss: “Sometimes God calls a person to unbelief so that faith may take new forms.”
Regardless, at this point, I have two conclusions:
1. I don’t know why we try to turn gods into men and men into gods.
2. Parroting Annie Dillard: I don’t know beans about God.